Glasgow Diaries Part (6) VI: The Worst Time

August 2018- January 2019: I moved back home temporarily to wait for my new student visa to process. During this time my relationship with my older sister completely fell through. We weren't ever that close growing up but when I needed someone to talk to, especially during this time, she was not present and was focused on other things. My relationship with my mom also was very rocky at this time since she was only focused on my older sister as well. We were always a very tight knit family but outside forces put a damper on our relationships with each other. I felt extremely abandoned and alone. It was the lowest time of my life. I was depressed and sad and in a horrible state of mind. Mahdee was the one and only person who saved me during this time.

Although we had a time difference of five hours, we texted each other during most of the day. He would keep me updated about what he was doing and I would tell him about my day. He was the only person  at the time that actually cared about me and I was comfortable enough with him to share my most vulnerable side with him. This is such a heavy statement but I know that if I didn't have Mahdee during this horrible time in my life, I would probably not be here right now. I prayed so much during this time and just wanted my student visa to process so I can be with him again and start my new masters course. 

During this excruciating time, I remember my parents telling me that I didn't have to go back to Glasgow and that I could just complete my master's degree at home, in America. With Momo and Zee having already graduated and moved back to their home countries, my only reason to go back to Glasgow, apart from my masters course was Mahdee. I can definitely say that if Mahdee hadn't been in my life, I would have not had a reason to go back to Glasgow. I had promised Mahdee that I would come back to him and I wanted to go through with that promise. I missed him so much during this time away and it was during this time that I realized how much he meant to me. 

January 30, 2019: After four very tough months of tears and prayers, on the morning of January 30th, 2019 my student visa finally came in the mail. I remember just stuffing the few jackets and shoes I had sitting around in my already packed suitcase. I never really unpacked in the four months I was temporarily back home. I quickly texted Mahdee to video call me because we had both waited for this moment for four very long months and I wanted to surprise him with the happy news. When Mahdee called, I showed my student visa to him with excitement, and finally we were so happy again. This meant that we could finally be back together again. After getting off the call with Mahdee, I searched for the next flight to Glasgow. I was fortunate enough to get a last minute ticket leaving that same day for Glasgow. I said goodbye to my younger sisters and on the way to the airport I texted Mahdee telling him that I was coming back to him, that same day! I finally felt that God was on my side that day and my prayers were answered. 

January 30th, 2019 (evening): It was evening time when I landed in Glasgow and I remember waiting for Mahdee at the "arrivals" section at the Glasgow International Airport. I was excited and nervous but most importantly I was happy again for the first time after four long months. I could still picture Mahdee running around the corner at the airport when he spotted me and we hugged so tightly. This was it, this was the moment when Mahdee became MY Mahdee, we were finally reunited and I was so in love with him. 

Next Glasgow Diaries Part VII: Love and New Friends