February 2019: Love. It just happens. You can't really stop it from happening, it just happens. I wasn't expecting to fall in love when I first moved to Glasgow, it just happened. But Mahdee became my everything at this point, he was the reason I am alive today, something I never told him. I will forever be grateful to him because of that. At this point I remember that I wanted to take care of Mahdee forever, I just wanted to be with him all the time. When I moved back to Glasgow in 2019, our relationship had escalated. I looked forward to making things special for him, whether it would be for his birthday in February or convincing him to take road trips together to new places, outside of Glasgow. We went on our first overnight trip for valentines day weekend and went on many other adventures in the parks all around Glasgow. Everything just flowed with him, it was easy with Mahdee, I felt comfortable with him, I felt at home with him. Our communication with each other w...
August 2020: I had moved back to America and started my new job at the end of August 2020. Mahdee and I were still texting everyday. Although we weren't together we still missed each other. I knew that continuing to text everyday wasn't the best idea but, it was difficult to break a habit that was two and a half years in the making. September to December 2020: Having this time apart from Mahdee gave me an opportunity to fully open my eyes and think back to how our relationship was not a "typical" relationship. Around this time, it was quite apparent that Mahdee wished that the relationship didn't end. He started showering me with amazing words and said how he still thought about me everyday. This is where nothing made sense to me, I needed him to say all of these sweet things to me while we were still together, what was the point of saying all of these things now? I didn't understand it, and this is where I sort of resented Mahdee and became petty. I started...
November 2019: By the time November 2019 came, I could feel Mahdee getting more and more distant. Despite me telling him that my favorite holiday, Thanksgiving was coming up, he chose not to spend it with me. This one might not seem like a huge deal, but to me at the time, it was really disheartening because he simply did not care. Some things shouldn't have to be said, they should just be understood, especially when you’ve been in a relationship for a while. He picked up soccer as another activity to do during the week without me, which meant it would be impossible for me to even ask him to sometimes spend another day with me when I really really wanted him to. He started leaving early to go home, even on the two days that we had agreed to spend together. He would also show up late on the two days that we had agreed to spend time together. He barley did anything to make me feel special. I always had to initiate that fact that we should go on a date or go to a new place. He barely...
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